tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-783508644628628353.post4618244217516452306..comments2022-03-10T09:21:17.644-08:00Comments on Hold On For the Ride: You Can Do This Hard ThingAnnemariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00925401776871859902noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-783508644628628353.post-61634459647951973262017-01-29T13:29:47.139-08:002017-01-29T13:29:47.139-08:00Thank you for your kind, supportive words. We ofte...Thank you for your kind, supportive words. We often feel very alone in our journey, and it heartens me to hear that other families are walking similar roads, doing their best just to get by sometimes. I'll be praying for you too--and am grateful for your courage in being honest and sharing your story. It means so much.Annemariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00925401776871859902noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-783508644628628353.post-1639338796345604382017-01-26T12:48:56.332-08:002017-01-26T12:48:56.332-08:00I have been praying for your family ever since I h...I have been praying for your family ever since I heard your story that I too am walking through. I adopted first time through an agency and was pressured to accept a referral God was telling me no too. Being a newbie, we brought the child home and our life was utterly destroyed. My entire family was consumed with the reality of our new life, my kids were not recovering and every single person was suffering. I hated hearing the good adoption stories, wondering why mine was nothing but pain. After a few years of this, God began to speak and write a new story for our family. With Gods help..I came to understand that my child's adoption, disability and our inability to cope came from a mismatched adoption. God clearly told us no over and over and over again but we just didn't listen, after all we were so excited to adopt. Since that time, we have went on to adopt two more kids that God DID lead us too and these two turned out to be the fuel to regenerate our broken family. Everyone is beginning to thrive again, smile and we have come to realize without that first adoption, we would not have these youngest two. We were going to adopt one and be done. God truly is making beauty from the ashes that once threatened to burn our family to the ground. Far as our first child, we are still trying and love our child with all our hearts, but we don't know the outcome, if we will be continuing longterm or not. Irregardless, we are grateful that our child will have a good life here in this country and that if we aren't the right family ever, that God will provide the right one. I used to be consumed with pain so deep, and it took nearly 3 years before I could even breathe again, but now I do. Not because we still don't walk this broken road with our beloved child, but because I realize that I can hurt and love and someday still let go if this is where God leads because our child deserves the best and if the best is elsewhere then I am truly ok with that. But oh how I prayed, how I begged and bargained with God to make me the Mother my child needs, but I am now finally healthy enough to realize...that it's ok if I am not. Its ok to just be me and be happy with the capabilities I do have. I am a wonderful Mom to many and I am so happy to have grown through this experience and whatever happens, I will never be the same person and finally to be able to see that it's ok no matter what. What hope I have. What joy. What peace. I wish for your family and anyone else in similar circumstances to know that it's ok whatever happens, it's alright to know your limitations, to choose for your family what works and doesn't. Us adoptive families are all different and not all stories are rainbows, and after walking our road, I know now it's ok to feel how we feel. No one is in our shoes, some are and love it and do well..others find themselves in shoes so uncomfortable that irreversible damage is done to the feet of those who continue to walk that road in shoes that will never fit. It's not our place to judge anyone elses journey but to encourage instead and accept what that person/family needs. I stand along side of you and wish only the best for your family and pray you run your race however you see fits...and I will be praying. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com